Whitewest

I haven't active here for a long time, yes I'm busy with my final project (A.k.a. Thesis).

I don't feel depressed much like the last one that I've wrote. Because I try to get rid of them into my Thesis ... also I've learn a lot of things from my formal friends
- I was only their need when they're feel lonely/ in troubles.
- They never be there for me when I'm in trouble/ bad feeling (even crying, they said I'm overthinking all the times---- I need listener!).
- When I'm upset, they usually say something make me feel so uncomfortable. 

Who's care? I keep doing my staff to reach my goal ... even I've been crying again and again. I know that my life is not beautiful nor easy like in fairy tale =_="

After this storm of my life... I will try to crate something new at here like many years ago.

Sorry for my poor English and thank you for reading!  


 

If you see this that mean, you're reading some depressed staff from me again.


For now, I'm during in drop-out time... my teacher decided me to drop-out for some reasons again. Most of my friends graduated, I feel happy for them but sad sometimes.... I feel like I can't graduated make me so low. 


Yes, I need to force my research my own future but I have been feel empty. I'm bad at cheering myself so I usually chat with my sister, my friends. My life still going on even I feel nothing but I have to keep moving on.

I try not to cry... I have no reasons to feel sad because I feel empty which is worse than sad feeling. I've lost interested in my hobbies (drawing pictures, reading books, playing games etc.) so most of my day waste for sleeping.

I want to be like other people who were surrounded by their fans... I wish I could have something like that in my life.


Thank you for your times for reading this,
Whitewest    

I haven't active here for a long time, I guess some of you will ask me.

I should graduate in this semester but ... 

I'm victim of Depression but I still alive even I have been thinking of my own death.
My university classmates have betrayed me since I was a freshman until now, I have been crying alone when I'm at home.
When I was trying to tell my parent that I'm depressed ... my mom didn't believe me , we had an argument... thanks to my sis for explaining for me... for now I'm cured and I feel nothing... I don't want to care anything which is not important to me (because I'm too tired to care everything).


I feel too depressed to creating new staff. I hope you won't get at me and sorry for my poor English.

Whitewest

P.S. I need new founder of my own groups RikuNami KH-Music-in-Mind Land-Sea-Sky